Link Party!

Hey guys 🙂

So I have not done this in awhile but I am in need of a good ole fashioned link party 🙂

I need to catch up with my reading and so I thought this would be the perfect way to do it.

Please feel free to share your posts here ( as many as you want) with me and I will be sure to stop by and visit 🙂

Who knows? Perhaps you will make some new connections 🙂

 

Take Care & God Bless ❤

Cavelle

 

 

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My Back Yard

Dear God

Your presence is known with a gentle wind between the trees.

The warm loving sun beaming down on my face

Wisps of clouds and breathtaking sky

The deer You send me in the morning while the sun gently rises

The nature You provide in all its glory

In trust

For me

For us

Despite all my sins

You allow me peace through Your beauty

You blessed me with this gift

Because You know my struggles

You know my sins

Yet You still find a way to offer me peace in times of need

You make sure I know

You  are never far
You’re all around me

You’re my backyard  💖

Take Care &  God Bless 💖

Cavelle

Animal Love!

Hey guys!

I hope you are all doing well. 🙂

Today I want to switch things up a bit and keep it light as we approach the end of the week. I am currently sitting in my favourite chair and as I look out the window, the sun is shining bright. Lately, I have been in a wonderful state of mind so I want to share the love. ❤

Some of you already know this, but I have two cats. Charlie and Miss Belle. They are basically my children and I find them to be highly entertaining. Their personalities crack me up and I have managed to capture this in pictures so I thought I would share my favourite pictures of each of them plus a few of my other favourite animal moments captured in time. If your day is off to a rocky start, I hope these photos can put a smile on your face. ❤

Let’s start with Miss Belle. She’s a diva at heart, possessive (yet very lovable) and although she is half the size of Charlie, she is the alpha of the two…of the whole house actually lol.

Here is her royal highness…

 

Miss Belle

As you can see, Miss Belle is not overly impressed that I disturbed her beauty sleep, yet when she wants the love, she will let you know…

MIss Belle 2

An then there is Charlie…he’s quiet and loves to snuggle…

Charlie Snuggles

Charlie allows Miss Belle to take the lead on everything. They remind me of an old couple and Charlie is the one always saying “Yes dear.”

He has his moments when he’s not so shy…

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Here is Charlie in all his glory. He had no problem posing for his boudoir photo shoot. ❤

It’s not just my cats that I love. Before Charlie and Miss Belle, I considered myself to be more of a dog person…

Tonka

 

 

This is Tonka. He’s one of the happiest dogs I have ever met. He loves to play and he loves to play in the water even more…

 

Tonka Water 2

 

Tonka Water

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And sometimes, I have some random visitors show up at the house like this little guy…

Rabbit

He (or she) was quite content nibbling on some grass in the back yard. ❤

Sometimes I think I love animals more than human beings. Animals can bring such joy into our lives. They love us unconditionally and offer the kind of therapy money can’t buy.

What are your favourite animal moments? Feel free to share the animal love here! ❤

Take Care & God Bless ❤

Cavelle

 

 

 

Grateful Challenge

Hey guys 🙂

So in my last post I mentioned taking things one day at a time or one minute at a time if need be.

I’ve been applying my own advice in the last 24 hours or so and I am starting to feel that weight of emotion lifting. Turns out, having a good cry is very therapeutic.

I choose to see brighter days ahead because when I really take a look at my life, I have much to be grateful for.

For starters, I have a roof over my head and food in the fridge, I have a job, I am closer to my family (literally) than I have been in years, I have a wonderful partner who stands by me everyday and two cats who can’t get enough love. I have much to be grateful for and sometimes it takes being in the throws of my woes to see that.

It’s easy to take the simple things in life for granted and when we do it is not long before the not so pleasant things in life add up and overwhelm us, making us believe our life is nothing but one big mess.

I challenge you today to take a step back and find something to be grateful for. It can be one thing or a lot of things but I promise there is at least one thing to be grateful for. Start there and you may surprise yourself at just how much you have to be grateful for.

If you would like to take part in my challenge please feel free to share what you are grateful for in the comments section 🙂

Take Care ❤

Cavelle

 

No Words…Just Emotions

Hey guys 🙂

So Monday is here again which means normally I would be posting Monday Mantra.

Today’s mantra is not so much a mantra as it is me needing to connect. I’ve been hurting inside. More than I realised. Last night I think was the first night I truly cried about everything and anything since making my life changing move 4 months ago.

I try my best to be a positive person. We should all strive for that but part of being a positive person is allowing ourselves to let go of the not so good stuff.

In the last two weeks, many things that I thought I had a handle on started to crumble. It’s funny how a series of seemingly small events can add up to one giant title wave of emotion and wow did that wave come crashing down hard.

Since being taken off my medication for anxiety a month ago, I felt like I didn’t have my usual armor to shield me from such overwhelming emotions. You feel like you have no skin and everything that touches you is raw…it hurts.

I’ve prayed more since my breakup and move across the country. It’s funny how God doesn’t always answer our prayers the way we expect Him to. In my case I thought I could just cry alone and pray and that God would make everything go away…turns out that’s not quite how things work.

In the end I found myself finally letting things go in the arms of a true angel. I am with a man who knows me better than I know myself at times. I was not expecting to find such a wonderful person when I made the move to start over. I was not even looking for a man let alone another relationship but he’s been there for me every step of the way. In ways I didn’t even know I needed but he knows and this time he didn’t allow me to bottle things up… That is love beyond compare in my eyes.

So I cried, and cried…and…you get the idea…

The thing is, sometimes there are no words for the hurt in your life. Sometimes it’s all just emotions and it’s so important to find a safe place to let those emotions go. Writing has always been an outlet for me in that regard because I express myself better in writing than I do in person. I know there are others out there with no words… just emotions…who may not want to or feel like writing but who need read the words of another knowing there is someone out there who can relate.

So I find myself today starting fresh despite the recent tears of yesterday. I choose to take things one day at a time…one minute at a time if need be. There is no shame in that. For those of you out there who may be hurting with no place to turn just know that I feel you and if you feel you can connect with me than please do. We all need a safe place to go when times get tough.

Like I mentioned earlier, it’s important to let the bad stuff go so that we can make room for the good stuff/people in our lives.

Philippians 4:6-7

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

 

Take Care ❤

Cavelle

Know The Difference

I mentioned in a previous post that I was going through a medication change and would be seeing a therapist soon. I thought I would update on how that went.

I was lucky enough this week to see a psychologist. First time I have seen one since my diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder and Generalized Anxiety Disorder back in 2014.

The only problem is, the hospital was suppose to send me to a psychiatrist.

What’s the difference?

Well, there is a big difference actually…

For starters, a psychologist cannot prescribe medication as they focus on the cognitive therapy end of things. They are primarily there to talk to and offer an objective point of view and offer coping skills.

A psychiatrist deals with the medical side of things. They focus on treatment with medication and monitor medical symptoms related to mental illness. They are not overly interested in talking about let’s say your childhood for example.

Now don’t get me wrong. I am not upset that I finally got to talk to a psychologist. I have needed talk therapy for awhile now but the problem is, my prescription is almost done (2 weeks to go) and I am out of refills.

My psychologist apologised for the mix up on their end and said he will do his best to speed up the process of getting me into psychiatry but he’s not entirely sure he can make things happen in 2 weeks time.

It’s not his fault this mix up has happened but based on the fact my last visit to the hospital (outpatients)  involved taking me off cipralex and seroquel and putting me on a starting dose of olanzapine for 3 months…I feel it should have been obvious to the hospital that I needed a psychiatrist ASAP.

The withdrawal from no cipralex has been unpleasant to say the least. It’s been nearly a month and things are just starting to balance out but my anxiety has been hard to manage without it.

Seroquel to olanzapine has resulted in a weight gain of easily 20lbs (I think more but I don’t dare to weight myself)  because now I crave sugar like crazy which I’ve never been a sweets person…I like chips…but yeah I was told by my psychologist that olanzapine is notorious for sugar cravings resulting in weight gain.

Yay…

When I look on the last 4 months, my head is spinning a bit. So much has happened and all I need is a re evaluation of my medication…which has been through several changes in a 4 month span leaving me all over the place…just needed to see a psychiatrist but noooo I get sent to a psychologist who cannot do anything for me regarding my medication.

Can you say frustrating?

This is why I write folks…

I hope that by shedding some light on my current situation, it will help educate others who may be confused by psychologist or psychiatrist. There is a difference and it’s important to know the difference…I’m talking to you hospital staff in particular…

Take Care ❤

Cavelle