Dear Hun, (aka love of my life)
Just over a year ago, my brother introduced us. I didn’t know it right in that moment but I shook hands with my future husband, the person that I thought only existed in my dreams.
Then, one day, when the storm that I broke from cleared, there you were just being your awesome self and I quickly realized “This guy is the real deal” a male version of myself.
Realizing how much I loved you in that moment also made me realize that maybe, just maybe, I loved myself too for basically the first time ever.
Before you came along, I used to joke with people that I could never date someone like me, as a way to justify the fact that I was in relationships where being myself was an afterthought at best.
Being myself was a “bad” thing.
I forfeited my identity, the things that made me an individual to try and mold myself into what past boyfriends wanted me to be and it was never enough…ever.
But one day, I put my foot down..hard. I hit the ground running. It was terrifying and liberating all at the same time…I was ready to take life into my own hands…
Funny how as soon as I did that, you just sort of fell into my lap. Best and worst timing ever lol.
It was like God was giving me a big hug, like a father proud of his child for doing the right thing and in turn he gifted me with you.
I think God had you in his back pocket the whole time, he was just waiting for me to wake up so that He could bless me with the best gift I could ever ask for. ❤
We have both been through so much. We both had baggage when we met and usually that would mean trouble, but in this case, we came together and helped each other to heal the wounds from our past because we both knew we had beautiful diamonds in the rough just waiting to shine, we understood each other’s pain and because we’re both so awesome, we got down to work and started chipping away at the walls we had built.
Now, like a sparkling diamond, we’re stronger than ever.
You are my best friend and I don’t think you understand just how much that means to me. We’re so connected. We know when to push and when to back off. We work through the tough times as a team.
We’re resilient. ❤
You give me the freedom to be me. I am still working on figuring out who I truly am and you support me on the journey and encourage me in the process. You make me want to be a better person everyday.
I used to feel like I was nothing more than some “crazy b*tch” (I was in fact told as much, more than once in the past along with various other derogatory statements.)
In my last relationship, I was apparently suppose to “get over” the struggles I had with mental illness…no support, just criticism as if I should be able to just turn bipolar disorder off…
But you…you let me cry and work through the pain, you make me laugh, you make me smile, I am even allowed to be grumpy and you respect my space…that’s a big one as I was never allowed to have that before. You don’t take the need for space personally. You understand my need to recharge and process my thoughts. You also know when to give me a nudge when I have been in “hermit mode” for too long.
I am so grateful for that. ❤
You don’t push me into a corner and try to trigger me just so you can point the finger and make things my fault so that you can remain a control freak.
You make me an equal. ❤
You encourage me…you make it alright to be a big giant nerd because…well…you’re a big giant nerd 😉
You’re not threatened by the fact that I am smart. I don’t have to dumb myself down for you. We have in depth, intelligent conversations…do you have any idea what a breath of fresh air that is?! To be allowed to use my brain without coming off as some sort of threat to you?
What a difference it is to be with a real man ❤
Because you are there for me in ways I never imagined possible, it allows me to be there for you the way I had always hoped to be in a relationship.
We both have our moments where we don’t feel good enough for the other…that is just the past talking as it does sometimes but the voice of the past is fading more and more each day that we’re together.
Don’t ever say “You deserve better than me.” because you, my dear, are in fact the better I deserve ❤ I have waited for you for what seems like a lifetime and it’s been well worth the wait.
You know what else I love about you? Other people love you. I don’t feel like I have to “explain” you to people in order for them to understand what I see in you or flat out lie about our relationship to make it sound amazing to people when it isn’t.
You’re such a good soul and people see that in you right away. When I am with you I am proud. My parents and family love you so I know I got it right this time lol
People are genuinely happy for us because it’s so obvious how much we’re truly happy with each other. W truly are good and healthy for each other.
The people that matter most to me don’t simply “tolerate” you for my sake while secretly hoping I will come to my senses and leave you.
Oh and did I mention your amazing work ethic? Nothing is more attractive to me than a smart man who sets their work ethic bar high. I take pride in doing a good job, being reliable and a strong worker. I enjoy being a good example and so do you. You’re not lazy. You won’t lower the bar just to appease a lazy person.
I’m not high maintenance, you know this about me and by work ethic I am not talking about the money…it’s the principle.
You will do what needs to be done to maintain security in our home without a second thought. You don’t leave me hanging and force me to be “the provider” which you know hands down I can do and have done in past relationships. I will also do what needs to be done to keep security in our home but you don’t sit back and expect it.
You care about taking care of me and putting my mind at ease making it effortless for me to support you in the ways that you truly need.
You are my king and as your queen, I am more than happy to stand by your side and let you wear your much deserved crown. ❤
Know that I will always support you in this way. I want nothing but the best for you. I want to show you that the women from your past, the ones who have stomped all over your heart and wallet for that matter…That’s over and it’s totally their loss and my gain.
In the end, all of that, your past…my past, it ultimately brought us together. The rest no longer matters and for the others? What goes around truly comes back around.
I will always have your back. Anyone stupid enough to mess with you from here on in, now has to answer to me and trust me when I say, for you, I will eat those people alive. You’re worth protecting and fighting for. You would and have, done the same for me. ❤
In closing, I only ask one thing of you.
Keep being you. You are truly a beautiful person. A rare find in this world and that is worth more to me than anything else ❤
I love you ❤