Thought I Would Share

Excited. My latest article for Canadian Florist Magazine was published today and this time around I wanted to share my work as I feel it is relevant to my blog.

With the New Year just around the corner, I decided to share my alternative to New Year resolutions that never seem to last more than a week. I think before we focus on wanting to lose weight, quit smoking and blah blah blah we should perhaps focus on something else first.

I invite you to read my article:

ELIMINATE PERSONAL LIABILITIES IN 2017

Feel free to let me know what you think in the comments section below! Your feed back is most appreciated 🙂

Take Care ❤

Cavelle

 

I only smoke when I drink…

That used to be me…I would only have a cigarette if there was a drink in my hand to go with it.

Turns out, I had a drinking problem…

In hindsight, I was dipping my toe into the dark side of life and it gradually transformed into bad habits like smoking, drinking, overeating and hanging out with the wrong people. It didn’t matter where, when or with who.

This was long before I would receive my bipolar disorder diagnoses. When I look back on my life before medication entered it, I am not sure how I am still standing. Oh wait, yes I know…. it’s the meds…a good chunk of the reason at least.

That negative part of my life seems like a dream.

As I am currently going through a medication withdrawal, I seem to have lost my center. The dream seems real now and I keep having to remind myself that there is nothing to be afraid of.

It’s moments like this that I find myself praying. Prayer whether you consider yourself  to be a religious person or not, is powerful. Prayer helps you focus, it calms your mind and keeps you present. Prayer keeps you in check.

Another way I like to keep the junk in my head at bay is by writing about it. It helps me to organize my thoughts and view them from a more objective standpoint.

I always feel better after I write. I am starting to feel better already as I bring this post to a close.

I would like to write and share a small prayer/poem that maybe helpful. There is power in prayer and even more power in numbers…

Ease my mind this day

For I am here to pray

I pray my worries wash away

That only the light may resume its stay

 

Take Care ❤

Cavelle

 

 

 

 

 

Starting Over

Where do I begin?

I guess should backtrack to a few months ago when I decided to shut Mental Break-In Progress down permanently and without warning…

I apologise for that sudden drop off the blogosphere. I was going through quite the life changing moment and I was purging many things out of my life as a result. At the time, I truly thought my blog was one of the things that needed to go.

Turns out it’s not.

Back in July, I ended a six year relationship. Out of the six years, about four of them were attached to an engagement relationship status.

As a result of this breakup, I decided the best course of action was to move 4000 miles across the country back to my hometown so I could be closer to my family and start fresh. I was tired of city life by this point so small town living was looking really good to me.

Instead of going into all the dirty details regarding this breakup/move I am going to skip it. This blog is public and I don’t feel like dragging anyone through the mud like Taylor Swift does every time she breaks up with someone.

Truth is what’s done is done and by making this move, it turns out many things were waiting for me when I arrived home. Family, friends, support, love….yup…love of my life was in my home town this whole time. We met through my brother and well, things took off from there.

Some may feel I did not allow myself enough time to process the breakup before moving forward. To that I say…my previous relationship fizzled out probably a good year before I actually decided to call it quits so in my eyes the break up was not some fresh open wound…this had been coming for awhile and both parties involved knew it…it’s just neither one of us wanted to admit it…I’m sure many of you out there can relate. You stick it out because you’re afraid to let it go.

Through this whole process. I feel like I am learning how to walk again. All the action that’s happened in the last 3 months has prompted me to change medications and seek out a proper therapist which I am happy to report that I finally get to see one next week.

For those of you battling your own mental illness, medication change can equal chaos…at least at first. I have been going through withdrawal and it’s been overwhelming at times. I am thankful to be in a relationship with someone that truly gets it as he has been down this road before.

I think for now this is where I will sign off. If you’re going through some not so pleasant life changes right now just know that I am rooting for you. They say trouble comes in three’s but I like to believe the good follows at the same rate. It’s just a matter of time.

Take Care! ❤

Cavelle